So much this last week... felt like last week was like a year. It's incredible how what I experienced with some really stressful stuff can take the art right out of me for awhile. On the bright side the storm is seeming to pass and things are looking up and boy when I finally got it in me to draw again, it just exploded beautifully. Nothing bad is worth sacrificing art completely over. You get up and kick butt again and move on striving towards the positive. I encourage anyone who is reading this, even though I ain't going into detail over my personal stuff, that wherever you may be in your walk of life, do not believe that you are defeated no matter what you are up against.
I am a Christian, also I confess that I believe in Jesus and believe in the Lord's power. I stand on it with all of my heart that he is the way. I was stripped of everything last week I felt, and I am here to tell you that not that my struggle is over or that I have arrived, but there is no way I could have carried on if it weren't for the love of God and his grace. He is the source of joy in my life and art. I am here to say that if it hadn't been for him, with what I experienced this last week, I could have completely lost myself. Thank goodness for his grace. So even if you don't believe in God, I am gonna tell you right now. He loves you where you are and as you are where ever that is. Even if you don't believe in him.
Now for good stuff!!!!!! I am redesigning a character of my own and it is such an inspirational process. I am enjoying color work with her as well since I am altering a few details. Good stuff. I made it through another piano recital just recently and on the same day got my drivers license!!! Not temps... the O' FISH thing!!! So yup I am legal hehehe.
Now my 20th birthday is coming up and I am so looking forward to it. Getting my license before I turned 20 has been my goal and now that it is achieved I feel a great burden off of my shoulders. Now strangely after a week of dealing with personal painful issues, a great undescribable great peace is washing over me.... and fuling my art all the more. Thank God for art and for joy.